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For the first time, I felt...
Wednesday, June 24, 2009 |
10:41 AM
- both nervous and excited at the same time.
College just ticked off for me last week. I wasn't the "transfer" type, so I never really knew what to feel or expect. But anyway, there I was, facing the new challenge ahead of me, summing up all my might not to faint or fall back. It's hard you know, most of them already had their cliques or barkadas for that matter. Others already knew each other from high school. That's quite fortunate, at least they wouldn't sit alone at lunch. But I did knew someone from our class - Chester. She was my classmate when I was in grade 4, but we're not that close. - anxiousness.
How can they pick up that fast? How can they just knew each other today and talk with each other so freely? I guess that's the miracle of meeting and making new friends. AND one of my weakness. My friends may not know it, but I'm really the shy, taciturn type when it comes to a new environment. I can really go out all day saying nothing - yep, nothing...the opposite of what I can be when I'm with my old friends. I admit, I was kinda raised inside a box... not wanting to go outside and beyond. Furthermore, I grew in a school where everybody knew who I was, and how to please me so easily. I regretted underestimating my 4 years with them ;(.. - the fear of reality.
When the first day ended in a blur, I realized, and remembered, for the first time, what my teachers always told us. "In college, you'll meet reality." The words keep echoing in my head louder and louder, like a megaphone. I hated myself for ignoring them =(.. I knew it was gonna happen, but I regretted for not taking them seriously. In college, I saw a lot of multi-colored people. Here, "so what?" and "who cares?" dominates. People would not always agree with you. People can do whatever they want. I saw people in groups - twos, threes, fours, and bigger, just like in high school. But what made me think is that I saw students walking alone. Definitely different. I remember a new friend of mine asked a 2nd year student why she's alone studying during break. She said she's not friendly much, but she does have friends. It's just that sometimes, you have to do things alone, like serious studying. College really is a different kind of reality... and you're on your own to make your way out. - like a black and white portion amidst the colored ones of the picture.
I seriously felt that when I got called two times in front to do an example of the activity, only to be embarrassed because I didn't do it right >.< ... And at that same time, I heard that one of my newest friends were to be exchanged, moved rather, to a another section [we were too many]. Of all the people, why her? *sigh*...Just when I was getting the hang of it. - getting the hang of it.
I decided to move to a much brighter side, since I appear to be so pessimistic on my earlier paragraphs. I knew I wasn't going anywhere if I would just sit and wait for someone to talk to me. So I remained smiling, friendly at all possible costs, and saying "hi" whenever I got a new seatmate in each class. In the next few days, I finally had someone to be with. They were fun, and so cheery that I'd almost forget why I'm worried. Two of them knew each other in high school, the other made friends with them easily. Me? a newbie ;p.. I listened to them on the most parts...since I really don't have anything to share that's worth sharing at the moment. But as I gradually observed their behavior, what they like and don't like, their initial reactions and stuff, I could finally make a comment that wouldn't offend the mood of making a new friendship. Soon I realized, it wasn't just them that's cheery, but the whole class was. We had a "tambayan".. They shared their thoughts, laughter, worries, cameras, and even their cellphone numbers - the things a typical teenage group would do during bonding moments. I'm finally lighting up and getting the hang of it. I'm more that grateful to Jehovah God for helping me get through this :).. He's a good friend :) - SICK.
Yep, sick with FLU.. I don't exactly remember when's the last time I got sick, err, maybe during 2nd year high ?.. But that was like, a fever for two or three days, then you're ready to kick off again ;p.. This one's different, way different. Last Saturday, I had a headache first thing in the morning, which made me lose my appetite. Then I suddenly felt hot. I knew this was a fever, so I took medicine. I quickly tried to remember what I'd do when I was sick before, and followed mom/doctor's guidelines: drink LOTS of fluids, take medicine, REST, observe. I did so, and by the time she got home my temperature was still rising... The next day, I was a bit better - with my temp going down to normal. But I still got headache.. Again, I lost appetite, but my body needs food and medication so I ate breakfast and had medicine. Then that's where it began. I felt nauseous and went straight to the comfort room. Sure enough, I vomitted T.T - a thing I definitely hated the most. All the eggs and hotdogs along with my medicine came rushing out like an inedible mixture - all gone. By the end of the day, I was getting better, I hope, and went to school the next day. In school, I realized it's not just me who's having this flu. Most of my classmates are. We feared it might be and desperately hoping it isn't, the new Influenza A(H1N1) virus that had attacked Phils this year.. By Tuesday [yesterday], the university announced a suspension of classes due to the a suspected case of that virus. and, to my surprise, one of the suspected students are in our college of Nursing >.<.. But not from our level though.. That was quite a relief.. And I read on Yahoo news that Metro Manila is under low/mild flu outbreak. We're near Manila, and hopefully this flu I'm having is just a normal one like the news said. One factor could be the abrupt change of climate these days. And so I'm staying at home, weak and tired-looking, but trying my best to get well soon.
I decided to quarantine myself for now, letting the virus die out before personally contacting others. I might sound exaggerating, but really, 'tis the first time I felt so weak, just from a flu.
I miss the congregation meetings though, the spiritual foods and my Bible study. T.T
If only I could hug him, with my sincerest gratitude, I would... P.S. wow, this wasn't intended to be a long novel ;p.. but then again, writing is my one way of expressing myself :)
Farvel,
EminA
Labels: classes..?, college, gratitude, sick, weak
...Then EminA's memories went on...
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Tomorrow is IT
Sunday, June 14, 2009 |
9:24 PM
With the capital I and T.. Iup, my first day of being a college freshie.. How I feel about this ? I
honestly can't describe it.. it's a mixture of jitters, butterflies [in my stomach], excitement[?] and everything..
I'm feeling this way because all my life, I've stayed in one school. Yep, in
one school - from kindergarten to high school. So, I've never experienced the
"I'm new here and I hope to be your friend" kind of thing.. and this will be the first T_T..
Sigh... all in all, I do hope I could get past the first day successfully :D ! and try making new friends...because I'm a taciturn person when it comes to being in a new environment.. ;p
And for those taking their first day of classes as well, whether college or not, I hope you'll find yours successful too :D I'm praying to Jehovah for our journey :)
P.S. new uploads at my devART -->
emina2492.deviantart.com Farvel,
EminA
Labels: classes..?, college, endless days finished
...Then EminA's memories went on...
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Another week of vacation ;D !
Monday, June 8, 2009 |
10:31 PM
Did I say
3 more days ? well, nopesy now ! ^ ^ we're granted with another week of vacation =)
The main reason:
MANILA - The Commission on Higher Education (CHED) announced Saturday that it is moving the opening of classes in colleges and universities to June 15.
"May directive si Chairman [Emmanuel] Angeles in a memo postponing the opening [of classes] in college level from June 8 to June 15 (Chairman Emmanuel Angeles has a directive postponing the opening of classes in college level from June 8 to June 15)," announced Julito Vitriolo, deputy executive director of CHED.
Vitriolo said the influenza A(H1N1) virus is the main reason for the CHED's deferment of opening of classes. He said the department wants to give students, who have travelled abroad, enough time for voluntary self-quarantine.
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ABS-CBN news
Although the reason isn't something to be happy about, it's a good opportunity to further prepare for our first day of being a college student =) !
and an excuse to have more free vacation time :PLabels: at my house, randomness, vacation
...Then EminA's memories went on...
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Counting the days 'till summer ends.
Friday, June 5, 2009 |
10:21 AM
How many ? In reality, it's
3 more days T.T... Let's just say that the dawn of June is finally coming and reality is taking its place -- college. I just attended the Freshmen Orientation yesterday and I soon realized that on Monday, I will soon enter a new challenge. I am praying for Jehovah's guidance to help me both in my mental and spiritual studies. I am slowly gaining more knowledge about Him. Yay ! and I've resumed my Bible studies ;).. I would occasionally join the street witnessing with my cousins too. So there, I'm hoping that even though Nursing (my course) is a hard course, I will still be able to find time for the ones I love, including Him.On the other hand, we did some last summer activities that I'd like to share :D !
Labels: blast with relatiives, events, great outdoors, out-of-town, summer, vacation
...Then EminA's memories went on...
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Officially
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